Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Last wendesday I was pulled from the classroom basically fired but I don't get paid grr. So now I have been just going to classroom to classroom asking if anyone needs help. I hate on the plus side I am not getting paid for working lunch.
I got the call saying I have been approved for surgery. So here is praying for late April early May.
I have hit a new low. 30 lbs gone that I will never ever see again. Bad thing I am losing the weight so fast that my body can't adjust and I hurt worse then ever.
I want to spend more time on my blog I am so tired at night I am going to bed so early. I hate it.
I have been thinking about my life and what I want. I am not getting any younger and as much as I love Him I can't wait for ever. I have had a crush on this one teacher at school so yesterday I asked him out. I threw him off and he was not the same the rest of the night hehe. He said lol that he is usually at school until 9 and really needs to stay that late. I told him if he ever has a few moment and would like to Give me a call. BOLD right lol.
The kids' are not waking up grrr.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
What I love about L
1. How nice he is.
2. How he treats my kids'.
3. That I can tell him anything and he still loves me.
4. All his sisters. He is the only boy and has 7 sisters and I love them all.
5. His mother, she is such a sweet lady.
6. His kids. We have had a rough time since I'm closer in age then I am
with their dad.
7. His love for travel. I love to travel.
8. The fights, hehehe. we hardly fight but then if we never did we wouldn't
have the make-up stuff lol.
9. His love for animals even thou I don't like them its cute seeing him with
10. Him being Him, that's what I fell in love with.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I would also like to thank Mama M I think this will help deal with this holiday. So on with the show. Since I have not had a wedding I will tell you about my dream wedding.
Since me and MR. will be all atwitter with love, nothing can possible go wrong. How is that so MOM2KMJx2? SOMETHING always goes wrong, it wouldn't be a wedding it something didn't go wrong? (side note: it took me 3 times to write that because this mini-laptop kept messing up). Why won't anything go wrong because we are going to Disney baby. I only want my parents, his parents(if still around, wouldn't be my dream wedding if I didn't say they were not around hehehe. I have 1 dreaded MIL(The Big One's grandma) I don't need another). So my parents and Kids'. That's it. Since I am losing all this weight I am going to wear a pretty white summer dress nothing too fancy. The colors are royal (get it royal for a princess like me lol, still reading lol)purple and silver. everyone will get their own cake. And we will have the cake for our 1 year. It will get married down by the water. all very elegant. It will be in the morning so we can play the rest of the day. the day after my parents will take the kids' back home. Mr. and I will stay for 2 weeks and play til our hearts content. We will get bride and groom mickey ears. We won't have to worry about money because he will be rich. I will finally be treated like the princess I am.
Hehe who am I kidding I will be lucky to ever get married and if I do we will probably just go down to the JOP.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
I hate being pregnant. I was 17 when I got pregant and 18 when I had him. From the beginning I knew I wanted him. I myself could not have an aportion or put him up for adoption. I now I was young but I was ready. I gave up everything. I use to drink, do drugs. I was bad. I would leave as soon as my parents got home from work and be home just in time for them to go to work. I would then sleep all day and plan what I was doing that night. I stopped all that when I found out I was pregnant. I just wish I could say the same for my cousin whose daughter is 6 months younger then my son.
The first 4 months were bad. I threw up all the time but I was gaining weight nicely. Then I balloned and I mean BALLONED. Overall I gained 76 lbs with him. I did find out what I was having. I was excited but I secretly wanted a girl. ( I still do). But I was happy. At the time I was a big Michael douglas fan, but I didn't want his first name to be Michael, so I made it his middle name. Pickin out the first name was a little harder and at one time Alan was considered. I didn't pick that and I found a name that I loved and fit perfectly with Michael and thats how KMJ was born.
We got everything we needed and awaited his arrival. I worked until Jan. 1999. His due date was feb. 5th but he had other plans. I remember labor starting clearly. I was walking around the mall when the contractions starting. I was with my cousin and her boyfriend. She was 3 months pregnant. I wanted him bad so I walked. That was on a Friday. On Saturday I was so uncomfortable that I ended up going to the hospital nd got sent home. GRR. same thing happened Sunday. I finally said thats it I'm going back until he is coming out. Tuesday morning. I was having some back contractions so I took a bath and they kept coming.
We get to the hospital for the 3rd time and I lost it. I told the nurse I couldnt do it anymore. This was the 3rd time I hav been here in as many days. Thankfully she felt pity on me. I got a room nd they started potacin about 1pm. and I got an epidual shortly there after. I was in heaven for the first ime in days. About 9pm I was checked and at an 8. I couldn't wait. Remember I was 18 and stupid. I had NO idea what was going to happen. I also had a low pain treshold. At about 930 I was told to start pushing. I knew this was the end and thought it would go quickly but it didnt. Starting at about 1030 I kept asking if I could stop and finishing tomorrow. They wouldn't let me. (gross coming up and TMI) since I was young and 1 of our friends was one of the nurses. She thought she would scare me by having me watch him coming out and touch his head. I remember just looking at my fingers digusted. lol.
He was born at 11:12 pm weighing 8 lbs 12 oz. 21 and half inches long. I started nursing right away and nursed him for 2 and a half years. I took to motherhood immediately. I loved it and still due.
If I could change anything it would be my age I would have waited. But I think I also have advantage of being young. I love my kids'. So there you have it the birth story of The Big One.
Happy 11th Birthday, Big One. Mommy loves you. I hope you have many more birthdays to celebrate.
Monday, February 8, 2010
I would have to say my Best date Ever was one of my first dates. I think I was 15 or 16 and he was 18( yes I have always liked them older). We started out with getting some KFC. HMM love me some KFC. We took it back to his house and ate close together lol. Then we went to the stockcar races. I loved it. It was so loud, The crashes(no one got hurt). i wish I had that much excitement in my life now lol.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
todays theme is How you met the love of your life. So it is.
I have loved 2 men in my life. the first 1 I lost to a drunk driver 4 days before our son turned 2 which happened to be 10 years ago on Feb. 4th. Here is our short story.
We both worked for the Padres/ Chargers at Qualcomm Studium. I worked the concession and he was one of the walk-arounds serving the people in the crowd. I was working the ground floor where the expensive seats where. My big job was to clean up the ketcup and mustard spells. Oh I know you want to be me lol. I also had to refill them to. Please don't be jealous it was a job that had to be done lol. So I had to stand out there and watch for spills and K would walk by to go to another section or to go get more food to sell. We started talking, he was a little bit older but I didn't care. We were both excited when we found out I was pregnant. He wanted kids' and loved them. He watched the players(both chargers and padres' kids') often. When I was about 5 months pregnant he went back to WV to help his mom with his Grandfather wasn't doing too good. What we didnt know is he would never make it back. He was getting ready to come back when the accident happened. I know he was gone awhile and he hated it. He's grandpa died a couple years after he did. I look at our son and Can't believe the amazing person we made.
I will save the other man I loved or still love for another day. Lucky you. lol
Saturday, February 6, 2010
1. What is the one thing your love does for you that you can't live without?
Making me laugh. I tend to be really hard on myself and he has a way of putting a smile on my face when I get that way. Of course sometimes I don't want to hear it and can bite his head off lol.
2. When did you know your love was "the one"?
Almost from the beginning. We were neighbors and I remember the first time I saw him. I was staning in my kitchen had just gotten something out of the fridge and there he was. In his casual blues for work. The thought that went through my mind was "I'm going to marry him". Of course its been almost 10 years and I'm still working on it lol.
3. Does your love have a special ringtone on your cell?
He did before I changed phone. I'm all out of Love by Air Supply. I want to find a new one but haven't taken the time.
4. What are you attracted to most in your special someone?
Its weird but I have to say how much hair he has. He has ALOT of hair. Everywhere. I love it. I love running my hands thur it.
5. Did you know when/where he/she was going to pop the big question?
Nope since I'm still waiting lol.
1. What are you most afraid of?
Leaving my Kids'. Or something happening to the kids'. Bridges, Airplanes.
2. Do you use a flat iron or curling iron?
Neither I'm very low maintenance, I get up brush my hair and put in a ponytail. People always notice when I leave my hair down, they are shocked at the lenght of it. When I lose 50 lbs I am doing something to my hair and I'm not telling anyone. right now I have enough for lock of love. I am half way to the 50 lb mark.
3. Hands-free or phone to the ear?
depends on who I'm talking to. most of the time No. If I start a marathon call with my sister or a good friend then yes. I have not used it on my cell since I got the new one a year ago. Should learn since they are getting ready to start No Cell while driving.
4. Do you have a matching bedroom set?
That would be a BIG FAT NO lol. no headboard, my dresser is half purple, half white with 2 missing fronts on the drawers. and my TV stand is beige.
5. Do you believe in the paranormal?
OH yes, There is a ghost here, friendly here. he likes to lay on me he is weird. I know its guy because while on vacation this summer, a friend stayed here and her son saw him. The most recent thing to happen was I was trying to get to sleep and I felt him, when he does that I can't move no matter how hard I tried. The Big One was right behind me. After a few minutes he moved to The Big One and he started twitching. I know weird but true.
When we lived in Ky. we had a couple ghosts. 2 I know of at least. I think 1 was a teenager liked to play ball and walk around. One right he was playing ball in my kitchen which was right next to my bedroom, I asked him to stop and he walked from the kitchen thur my room and sat on the couch. The other 1 had to be a child because they liked to play with The Big One toys in the middle of the night. That one annoyed me lol.
Monday, February 1, 2010
I'm apologizing now for this week. Thursday marks the 10 year of K's death. And The Big One does not deal well with it. My heart breaks for my son that never knew the wonderful man that was his father. I weep for K for never being able to know his great son. We Love you and miss you, K. Please take care of us from up there this week.
I have already started crying today and its only Monday. The Big One had a counseling appt. this morning. his 1st one at this new place. It was very emotional so we just came home. He does not want to go to school on Thursday and I will probably let him. He is not alone in his class with having a father that has passed. He is the only one who lost him so young.
Next Tuesday The Big One turns 11. We are going to the capital city and going to the Children's Museum. Hopefully we will be able to have some fun.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
1. Would you ever vacation alone?
Heck ya. Lol I have been to work conferances alone I consider those mini Vacas.
2. Do you go the speed limit?
Most of the time. I have a lead foot that has gotten me in trouble a time or 2. Like the time in Wy where the cop said I was going over 100 I don't think so but I got a ticket anyway.
3. Why did you start blogging/following blogs?
Not sure how it got started. I started reading because of some friends that had kids' and I liked it. now I follow way to many but I'm in January hope to catch up by the end of Feb. lol.
4. Where do you shop for yourself?
Walmart becuase I'm losing lot of weight I don't want to spend a lot of money. Before I would shop at Torrids. Can justify that now I won't be wearing the clothes that long.
5. What was the song that you danced your first dance with your spouse to at your wedding...or...what song would you like your first dance to be to?
Don't know That is 1 part I have not dreamed about lol. I want to get married but not make a big deal out of it. The thing is if I ever get married it will be a big deal. lol.
I like 2 guys and could possibly love 1 or both of them. 1 is available and a pain in my rear for the last 10 years. The other is not available and keeps playing games, just told him I was done. I tried to help him and got accused of stuff that was not my fault. Told him when we was or if he ever is ready to call me.
On Tuesday I got the aid position in 1st grade to find out its not a paid position, WTF. I had been told time and time again that they did not want 2 people from the same church in the same room as teacher/aid. Fine so why did they hire BF her and teacher go to same church. This were said but we talked them out. I was upset for reason I think I can be upset about and BF didn't know what they were and thought I was jealous and being childish. Once we talked them out she agreed that my feeling were valid. I am up at the school from 730 to 530-600 almost everyday and none of it I get paid for. I love doing and I'm not going to stop, but being paid a little even if its helped with tution would be nice. I also told her I love her she is my 1 BF that I can tell anything and everything,too. She said I had been a crappy friend. Which part is true. She we joined 3 schools the amount of friends I have made has become crazy lol. I like it but I don't know how to balance it all. I am glad we were able to work things out. I do love her.
The Big One and I have been fighting most of the week. I hate it, makes me feel like a bad parent. This coming Thursday marks the 10th anni. of his fathers death and the following Tuesday he will be 11. I hate the first couple weeks of Feb. So this week is The Big One and I weekend. The Small One is at grandmas. We are going to go to the movies and then come home and hang out.
I think on wednesday I am going to take my computer in to get fixed and get another small laptop to hold me over. I am going to go get ready to go to the movies. I think The Big One is getting ready to finally wake up, lol.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
sleep with the kids' is hit and miss. The Small One goes to sleep pretty easy. The Big One, not so much. He has always been like me. A night Owl. A friend had told me today that 1 thing she took from her mom was she never gave them a bed time. It made them responsible for getting sleep. The Big One loves school and would die if he ever fell asleep or something. So i am trying it tonight and guess what. The Small One is asleep but didn't get to sleep until after ten and The Big One still awake. They didn't even notice until about 10 or so that I wasn't telling them to go to sleep and The Big One was freaking out, but not for long since he is still awake. He would say why aren't you making us go to sleep and I would say do you wanna? he said I wanna watch another ghost Adventure and then he would go to sleep. It ended about a half hour ago. I am heading to bed. Have to work tomorrow.
Sorry this doesn't make much since I'm falling asleep.
Monday, January 25, 2010
All the sudden my neighbors have gotten rude. Grrr. We share a driveway. It makes a Y with their side and my side. I know for years and years they did not have to share but I have lived here for a year and half, so why all the sudden hogging the driveway. They have a big SUV that fit perfectly into their spot with no room behind. And my little Escort fits and could possibly have another car behind.
Saturday this big extended cab truck its the first car in their spot and they are parked right behind it in part of our shared spot. Now granted on most Sundays we don't leave until the afternoon because our church is right across the street, but yesterday The Small One had to sing at another church for school. I rang the bell at 825 for them to move their car. They did and waited until I was out then put the SUV back so when I came back I couldn't pull into my spot. They did it again this morning and I will keep ringing the bell at 710,715 every morning until they get the idea.
I think it has to do with the dog complain and that just makes them stupid.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
So I called Animal Control and let them know that I have in no way shape or form have an animal. they took my name and address in case someone complains again. Then I complained about my neighbors dog. They let it out and it barks at all hours of the night. Drives me crazy.
do you think I did the right thing about complaining about thier dog.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
The next person to call in said that the people in his office are cordonated that one person will go and harvest everything and it gets going. CRAZY. lol
So are you addicted to FarmVille
Monday, January 18, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
P.S. The Small One is sleeping on the bathroom floor again. has puked 3 times tonight. grrr.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
During the Appt. we did an activity. My table had to come up with a meal from Wendy's that had all the food groups. 1 table had to come up with just a regular meal and the other reg meal but potion control. The first table meal came up to 1080 cals. that is crazy. The 2nd table came up with a meal of 480 cal. Our table's meal came up with 500 cals. The differance between potion control and ours was ours had less fat from cals. Theirs was 21 grams and ours was 9. It was crazy. Then the lady talked for a half hour about excerizing.
After the meeting I went and talked to M who has helped me alot since I switched to them. She told me some good news and bad news. The good news was I could sign this paper. The bad news they wanted me to come back on friday for 5 minutes to hear the doctor talk to me about the Risk of Procedure. My doctor was there and she was the one that had to sign it. I told them I couldn't do it. It takes me 5 hours round trip to go there. Was there any way another doctor could do it since I was already there. After some bitching and complaining on the nurses part I was able to wait and see a doctor then. When I mean wait it was over an hour. But it is done. M said she didn't care how last she was going to be but she was sending my paperwork to Insurance for Approval. I surely hope third time is a charm. I am ready to be done.
Please pray for fast healing, for comfort,
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Tomorrow is crazy. I have to be in Indy by 830 so my mom and I are leaving at 530. come back head over to work. leave at 430 for The Big One's last home game. My friend The Lunch Lady is coming. Then after we are heading to a birthday party. crazy crazy day.
Tomorrow and Thursday The VB stores are holding a Start Fresh Event . And I'm going. they are usually very generious and give out special products and theses events. My mom and I are going on Thursday and I can't wait. Are you going to go? What's your favorite color of Vera. This spring I am not thrilled about the colors will have to wait until summer/fall.
So on to the title of this post. I am writing this post, reading SITS Featured Blogger and comment(I'm really trying), and getting kids' up for school. Hehehe.
I think I have figured out where I want this blog to go. I want to do things with the kids' and blog about it. Just not sure how to go about it. We LOVE to travel and we live close to 2 theme parks and 3 major cities. There are endless possibilities.
Must go for now the kids' will not get up and there is 1 more post I want to write before we leave.
Monday, January 11, 2010
I was born where we live but grow up in San Diego, Ca. I have been trying to get out there for a couple years to visit family and show the Boys' where I grew up. I would love to take them Disneyland(we went to Disneyland before we moved here but The Small One was 8 months and The Big One was 4), Legoland(they would LOVE it, since Legos are all over my house), The Zoo, Sea World. Taking them to Benihanas, Corvette Diner. La Posta. Man my mouth is watering lol.
Since I am having this surgery I don't think my family with regonize me. LOL. I could easily lose 75 to 100 lbs by the time we leave. So I am putting my toes in the water, just not sure how to do it? Anyone have any tips? I would Love to do a blogging trip.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
The Big One talking to his girlfriend right after midnight on New Years. They talked for over an hour. GRRR.
This is The Big One with The Princess who just turned 4 months.
This is the Prince he turned 3 months on New Years. compared to The Princess he is a tiny thing. But I love them both.
This is a cute pic of The Big One and The Prince sleeping.
The Small One dancing I think to J. Lo. He is a very weird child.
The boys' toasting in the New Year with sparling cider.
The Princess and her Grandma, my best friend, came over after church last sunday. I got to feed. Grandma forgot a bib so I used one of my napkins. She liked wiping her face lol.
Last night we went over to a friends' house and Wii-ed. the wife had never played before so it was fun. the husband took over as soon as we got there.
We were suppose to go to a friends' house tonight for dinner and games but with The Small One sick we are not going to make it.
I am going to grade and hopefully read some blogs today. I finally found a system to help me catch up. Hopefully. I am a month behind.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
The weather is horrible. we have had 2 inches of snow since 730. schools are dismissing early but not ours. but i'm thinking of heading over there. There is still 2-3 hours of snow to go.
I didn't go to work today because I woke up with a migraine that meds didn't help. I came home and went back to sleep and woke up much. better.
Wish me luck I'm about to go try on my zip up jeans.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Wii Fit Plus was made by the devil himself. But today was not so bad.
The Big One has 2 basketball games today. GRR. at 415 and 530 and we have to stop by the store after. late dinner.
I didn't go to work today. I had to watch The Prince. He is getting so big and so flipping cute.
If anyone reads this plus leave a comment. I need some comment Love lol.
Monday, January 4, 2010
If you want to go to the mall and walk for 10000 steps make sure to take your tennis' because if you walk in your snow boots your feet will kill you.
I feel very good. I got up at 6 and did my Monday routine. In a lot of pain. and I broke a new record on band rhythm. I Rock.
off to work with no lunch but will take breakfast.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
I hope everyone had a WONDERFUL New years. I had baby boy but he slept most of the night. The Big One and The Small One both stayed up until almost 2. They toasted in the new year with Sparkling Cider. I am going to lay down. Baby Boy had me up at 830 after going to bed after 2.