Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
I think i'm pretty nothing to call home about. I just have a feeling its going to get worse when I have the surgery because then I will be skinny, but why didn't they want me when I wasn't skinny. My additude won't change, I am who I am. I love my kids', I love my Church and God. That's not going to change when I lose weight, I'm just going to look different. I think i'm a hell of a catch. I cook from scratch, keep house, I quilt, I'm funny and I would give the shirt off my back if I could. That's not going to change when I lose the weight because that is who I am and that stuff makes me happy. I love spending time with my kids' and doing things with them. That's not going to change. So why do guys' look to the outside first? I am changing my outside because I'm not happy with it. I'm doing it because I want to be around for my kids'. Right now I do not have any health problems but with family history in the weight and medical area that could change and I don't want that. My kids' tell me i'm beautiful but I dont' feel it.
I'm afraid I'm going to end up alone anyway. I'm afraid i'm going to end up resenting guys' anyway because they didnt notice me when I was bigger. Am I valid in feeling this way? Am I going to resent guys' once I'm small. I feel better not that I got it out, Hopefully I can sleep now.
Monday, September 28, 2009
I am walking in Memory Of Tommy (Oct. 27th, 2003-Oct. 13th, 2004). In Honor of Of Kamari, Emma, Xander, Grifyn, Ava, Brianna, Micah, Danny, Lauren, Kennedy, Kellsey, Anya, Zoey and Arthur.
My Donation page for The Buddy Walk.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
i was also talking to another friend about some things and she told me I was ridiculous. And I needed to stop OK yes I was being I don't know but they are my feelings, I can't help them. I feel better getting this out. I think. Now I am going to take the Boys' to a doctor appt. then The Small One to my mom's and The Big One is having 3 friends spend the night tomorrow oh yea me.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
This is my 99th post.
I like soccer but man its boring.
I LOVE VERA BRADLEY. I am getting a new backpack tomorrow in PURPLE PUNCH. And a Lanyard for my WORK Badge.
1 ONE week until GREY'S ANATOMY. George is NOT I REPEAT NOT dead. I refuse to believe it.
I love reading to my kids but I have a older child in a sport 20 minutes is hard to find.
How is it that the 1st grader has homework every night but Friday and the 5th grader has only had it 2 times since school started.
I feel like crap I HATE having small Sinus' because when the weather changes I ALWAYS get a Sinus' Infection. Have to call the doctor tomorrow.
Today is Wednesday, several things happen. Pogo badges come out. I have 1 done already. and Handbells. I love Handbells. I have been playing for 6 years. I have this year and next then I have to take a 2 year break because of Conformation.
This is my 99th post. I want to do something for my 100th but have no idea what.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
She is such a doll. I have a pic on my phone of just her face and she does look like just a Doll.
The Vera Bradley Diaper Bag. Love It.Photos from www.verabradley.coom
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
On June 25th we left to go to Weirton, WV where 2 of my good friends live and haven't seen and they were moving. It was Awesome, I usually hate WV because of my ex-mil but up ther ein the mountains was awesome. I loved sitting on their deck with a very weat internet connection and catch up on stuff. We did so much in the 3 full days we were there. We got there Thursday afternoon and just chilled. We were going to surprise my 1 friend but her husband told her but she was still happy. When we got there is when I found out Farrag Fawcett had died and Michael Jackson had been rushed to the Hospital. Friends' Husband and I plus Kids' went to dinner and that's when we found out that MIchael Jackson had Passed. The whole Restuarant was buzzing with the news.
Friday Friend was off so we ran errands and such. Went to their old house to help pack up and such. Not much happened that day.
Saturday, Friend had to work, boo. Friends' Husband toolk the Big One to the dumpster(I told him to leave him, but he didn't, lol) They were unloading a bunch of crap from the old house. After the Boys' got back and took a nap. they started to put together a table a chairs for the porch. The Big One put togehter the table and 2 chairs by himself. Very Proud of him. they also played badmitton all in all it was a good day.
My friend' live in the wood' and the deer literally walk thur their yard. I had a vvideo but its on a disk some where I will post it when I find it.
On Sunday we went to church. Then to a flea market, where they spoiled the Boys' rotten. The Small One for a Spiderman hat and a sticky dart gun thingy. The Big One got 2 things for Star Wars stuff. After that we went to the mall. We went glow in the dark Mini-golfing and then went and saw Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen. It was a very good movie.
We got up Monday to a very good breakfast and hit the road for the second part of Road trip 2009.
Here are some pics from that trip.
If you pray please pray that insurance does what it should and pray for the first surgery.
and Second for if the Lady decides to go somewhere else. It would still be a good thing because she would still get the surgery done.
Yesterday after work I checked my facebook to find out my friend "D" who's birthday is 6 day's after D is going to be a grandma, too. Her daughter is 19 and engaged so a little better situation. Her due is May 1st. They are excited to be grandparents today. D and J are both married but we are all close so its exciting. No I will not be a grandparent any time soon since my kids are 10 and 6.
I'm so excited there are Baby eerywhere. And I'm happy for the Duggars and #19 good for them.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
29 is going to be a busy year, good year. Since given birth to those bouncing baby boys' I put on a lot of weight. Family history is big people, but in everyone Else's case they are also very tall. Not the case for me. I am 4' 11'' and a quarter(can't forget the quarter) lol unless I am wearing my Z-coils, then I am 5' he he.
When I got pregnant with that first bouncing baby boy I gained 76lbs yes shocking I know. I was 137. On my little frame it was brutal. And it didn't happen until my 4th month and then BAM. He was 8lbs 12oz. So he wasn't little either. He was 4 days late the little shit. After he was born I was able to get down to 180 but it never lasted long. 3 years and 2 months later I was right back up to 213. I hated it. But I got pregnant again.
I gained wight again and ended up having GD. I gained 40lbs. I just looked like a Oompa Loompa. I hated myself. I didn't care I would go out in my PJ's. In 2007 I lost 30lbs but guess what they have found again. and that Little Bouncing Baby Boy was only 6lb 1 oz and is best little Christmas present ever. And also a little shit.
When I was 8 and a half months pregnant with the Little One I was stupid and stood up on a chair. I broke my Fibia from half way up my leg in half straight down. I had to have 6 pins and a plate put in 3 days after I had him and could not walk for 3 months a very dark 3 months.
It wasn't until July of last year that I started to care really care. I want to be around for my kids and I can't stand to look at myself. So I am Having the Lap-Band done. I have tried in years past to lose weight. I have a Thyroid problem that makes it hard to lose weight(also lose year and can't sleep), My ankle is now fused and doesn't move and I have massive arthritis in my lower back from being hit by a car 12 years ago and in my ankle.
I have already started eating less. I just had surgery this past Tuesday so once I heal I am going to start Wii Fit again.
And tonight I got to spend it with 13 friends, Drinking, Eating, and Laughing. I am very blessed.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
The boys' have been in school for a week and a half. They love it. The Big One is in 5 th grade but is taking 6th grade math. His teacher said she would put him in 8th grade reading if she could. He is also doing soccer which is kicking his butt, band, then basketball, and track. Heard there is going to be a chess Club so that too.
The Small one' is in 1st and loves and he is so cute in his uniform. Just trying to get him to do homework has been a little bit of a pain, but we have been so busy too.
The Big One' is already dealing with girl issues' geez louis'. He has had a girlfriend for almost 5 years next month. she is in 8th grade and I love her. Now a week and half into school and he was told that this other girl likes him and he says he thinks he likes her too. Oh my its already starting.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Today we have to run to my mom's and then go to a all-day birthday party,Who does that?
Tomorrow is Easter which means, I have to play at both services and then family easter at my mom's. Urg
Once things calm down I will hopefully be able to post more.
Saturday, April 4, 2009
The Small has lost another tooth and is waskind of funny. I was finishing up something and he said mom, can you pull my tooth out. I said in a sec and he said oh, its out. Lots of blood to follow lol. Talking about teeth, they both had dentist appts. monday. Wooohooo no cavaites. But we did find out some interesting news about The Small one. He has an extra tooth. The kid does nothing normal. The extra tooth is above the tooth he lost tonight. So another baby tooth will come in then an adult. Looking at his teeth tonight, I have no idea how the teeth are going to fit. I am pretty sure braces are in the poor kids future, more sooner then later i'm thinking.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
The Small one got sick in the car on the way home from a Mad Ants Basketball game thursday. Needless to say he stayed home friday and got an extra day for spring break lol. The Big One and I think we have it figured out. We think he gets Carsick. I have asked if he feels like he is going to be sick or if he just gets sick, he answer was it just happens. So he is banned from playing his DS in the car.
Friday started them on Spring Break and how to be celebrate it, with snow of course. It didn't stick but it snowed today.
The Wii. I have loved it since more so since we got Wii Fit. I have being doing it everyday since we got it. I can already tell a difference in my jeans'. I go thur the Yoga then the Training. then last the Advanced Step. I love the Advance Step, I think that is my fav out of all of it. When I started my Wii Age was 42, it might have went up to 52 during the week, but today after a week of doing(plus starting that girly thing yesterday) my Wii age was 32 today. I was so happy. I have a hard time doing some of the excersizes because I have a fused left ankle. I do my best and it is paying off. In about 2 weeks I am going on a liquid diet to get ready for the Lap Band. I am so excited and I think between the 2 I am going to be a smoking hot 30 y/o next year. so glad we are going on a cruise for my 30th birthday.
Today I had to attend a Bridal Shower. I was bored. I like the bride but right now I am bitter. I want to get married. I want to have more kids. I am not happy with my body looks, therefore I feel no one else does. I don't go out except for once a month with my mom friends. The only other place I go is church. I would love to meet someone from church. I have guy friends, I just don't feel they like me enough to have a relationship. If they do they don't show it.
Laundry is almost done, Boys' are going to my parents and the house is clean. I am going to be bored, bored, bored. Ahhh, the good life lol.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Tonight we went to The Living Dramatization of Leonardo DA Vinci's The Last Supper at our church tonight and it was very good. Now the kids won't go to bed.
Tomorrow we are going to church then to Joann's to get Fleece so I can finish up come Quilts I have.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Some of the Awesome Prizes I would like to win are:
2, 21, 26,41, 55, 58, 60, 91, 92, 103,106, 114,118, 120,124.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Update: He barely has a bruise, thank goodness. He does say his jaw hurts when he moves it so I am going to call his Dentist tomorrow to see if they want to check just to make sure.
Yesterday took the boys to see Race to Witch Mountain. It was really good. I loved Escape to Witch Mountain and Return from Witch Mountain. You could differently tell the differance from 1970's to now. I was very happy to see both Tina and Tony in it just wish they had bigger parts. overall the kids liked it and thats what matters. Could do without having to take out a second morgage just to go to the movies lol.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
|You Are Clever and Studious|
When You Are Comfortable:
You are philosophical and opinionated. You have quite a few pet causes, and you're always adopting a new one.
People see you as clever and smart. You now a lot, and you love to talk about a variety of subjects.
When You Are At Your Best:
You are quite quirky, and you enjoy doing things your own way. You are optimistic, and you've always got a good idea brewing.
People find you to be positive and uplifting. You make people feel good about themselves.
When You Are in a Social Setting:
You are ambitious, and hard-working. Adversity allows you to shine. You resourceful and able to make due.
People see you as honest to the point of bluntness. But they always know that you'll be fair. You have the good intentions.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
1. What is something mom always says to you?
Big one: I love you
Small One: Go with your Brother
2. What makes mom happy?
Big one: Me listening (hum when?)
Small one: Doing Work (ok hmm no)
3. What makes mom sad?
Big one: Me not listening (then I must be sad all the time)
Small one: Not doing work ( I think he got the last 2 questions backwards)
4. How does your mom make you laugh?
Big One:recording funny shows
Small one: by tickling me
5. What was your mom like as a child?
Big one: not good
Small one: Hitting yourself (hmm ok)
6. How old is your mom?
Big one: 28 (sad thing is he is right)
Small one: 23 (hehehe)
7. How tall is your mom?
Big one: 4" 11 (and he strikes again, little brat)
Small one: 48 inches (damn i'm short)
8. What is her favorite thing to do?
Big one: read blogs, watch tv
Small one: making quilts
9. What does your mom do when you're not around?
Big one: Sleep, watch tv, read blogs
Small one: take naps (Damn my kids know me)
10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
Big one: Quilting (I hope so little man, I hope so)
Small one: for her kids
11. What is your mom really good at?
Big one: sewing
Small one: sewing
12. What is your mom not very good at?
Big one: being straight (whatever that means)
Small one: kicking her face(then he says no one can do that lol)( I think I'm losing him)
13. What does your mom do for a job?
Big one: watching children, making quilts and selling them
Small one: Be a police girl (in what universe)
14. What is your mom's favorite food?
Big one: chicken (yeppers)
Small one: celery, corn, peas, carrots (hmm i like my veggies lol)
15. What makes you proud of your mom?
Big one: Make enough money to support her children
Small one: drinking milk (i have lost him)
16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Big one: tweety (hmm, I wonder why)
Small one: Minnie mouse (awww)
17. What do you and your mom do together?
Big one: watch My Big Redneck wedding
Small one: Take Naps
18. How are you and your mom the same?
Big one: we both like to read
Small one: we have the same eyes, same skin
19. How are you and your mom different?
Big one: I watch stars wars, she doesn't
Small one: we don't have the same shirt or shoes on
20. How do you know your mom loves you?
Big one: she sometimes gives me what I want
Small one: Because I be nice
21. What does your mom like most about your dad?
Big One: she loved him
Small one: Nothing (damn skippy sammy)
22. Where is your mom's favorite place to go?
Big one: Virgina and disney places
Small one: My Happy Place (lol)
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
On a side note I got three rows done on my tweety quilt which is big since its a queen size quilt I will post pictures laster today hopefully. I CANNOT wait until it is done.
Friday, March 6, 2009
I am so happy about my quilting I finally got all the fabric cut for my tweety quilt now I can start sewing it.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
Tonight is a busy night, The big one has band practice, then they both have boy scouts. I'm thinking pizza for dinner lol.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
1. mom2kmjx2 needs a boob job
yes yes I do, I hate having this watermelons on my chest.
2. mom2kmjx2 needs to shop 'til she drops
I would love to if I had the money
3. mom2kmjx2 needs a new computer
actually no I don't mine is a little over a year, and the boys' a little over 2.
4. mom2kmjx2 needs a drummer on Myspace Music
maybe if I had a band
5. mom2kmjx2 needs photoshop
Yes I would I would love it
6. mom2kmjx2 needs a good meal
actually I am getting it tonight homemade Chicken&Noodles.
7. mom2kmjx2 needs a husband.
I would love a husband and more gets.
8. mom2kmjx2 needs to live in the NOW.
I try I really do.
9. mom2kmjx2 needs an Urban Love Nest.
not sure what that is.
10. mom2kmjx2 needs to lay off the botox.
I'm insulted everything on me is natural, thank you very much. lol
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
and in other news I just checked my google thingy lol and i'm popular in New York which rocks becuase I will go to a Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade before I die. and also thanks to Cali. (I was raised in San Diego), Kansas( been thou there), Mass, Colo.(been thou there, Penn.(been thou there) , Loui., Wyo(been thou there, Got 2 freaking tickets).. Nevada,(love vegas and the M&M's and Coca Cola store) Fl(going to disneyworld in July), and Ari(been thou there).
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Friday, February 20, 2009
Me: ok, that was our of nowhere, why do you not want that carseat anymore?
small one: Because I got it when I was 4 and i'm 5 now.
Me: well, honey You have to be in a carseat until you are at least 7 years and 80 lbs. So lets do the math.
small one: ok
Me: you are less then 2 years to being 8 and weight 35 lbs. So that means you have to gain 45 lbs before your 8th birthday. Do you think you can do it?
small one: NO
Me: i'm sorry sweety, I think your going to be in a carseat until you are in college. (as he goes and pouts) lol.
They are saying we are suppose to get 2-4 inches of snow by noon tomorrow. I am suppose to go out with my mom's group so I hope I can go. I will be taking the boys to my mom's and picking them up after since lately my parents haven't wanted to go to church and not going to church is not an option in this house unless you are sick. wich was the big one a couple weeks ago. And he was upset he wasn't able to go.
I hope everyone has a good weekend.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Thursday, February 12, 2009
A week ago this past Saturday i fell from the top of my basement stairs to the bottom about 10 stairs. I stepped off the first step and that was all she wrote. I tried to grab something and cut my hand, but it slowed me down to where I didn't hit the bottom basement wall as hard as I would have which I think saved me from something worse happening. I got right up and walked up the stairs. I cut my hand and very nasty bruise on my entire thigh and around back. one of my butt and jotted ones going up my arm. I am still sore and my shoulder is still sore. But I am very grateful that is wasn't as bad as it could have been.
and last but not least i have been a mom for a decade. I still can't believe it but man I love him. He had a great birthday and got alot of wanted he wanted. He had it at Laser X. He had 10 friends there and we had pizza and cake. When we were going home they were making plans to go again lol. it was nice for parents too. they would go play laser tag and the parents could talk in semi peace and quiet. So wow I'm so glad we have made it this far. Even with the bad days.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009
With raising boys' by myself I am going into uncharted territory with the oldest going to be 10 in a couple weeks. So this is a convo we had tonight. He was Rubbing his area and I asked if he was ok. he said Yes, I rub it to smooth it out when its hard. I died, that's it I have to laugh or I will never get thur this lol.